whatever we are, i still remember the way we were

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I love being horrible straight forward. i love sending reckless text message (because how reckless can a form of digitized communication be?) and telling people i love them and telling people they are absolutely magical humans and i cannot believe they really exist. i love saying "kiss me harder" and "you are the best" and, "you brighten up my day". i live my life as straight forward as possible. because one day, i might get hit by a bus. maybe it's weird. maybe it's scary. maybe it seems downright impossible to just be -- to just let people know you want them, need them, feel like, in this very moment, you will die if you do not see them, hold them, touch them in some way whether it's your feet on their thighs  on the couch or your tongue in their mouth or your heart in their hands. but there's nothing more beautiful than being desperate. and there's nothing more risky than pretending not to care. we are young and we are human and we are beautiful and we are not in control as much as we think we are. we never know who needs us back. we never know the magic that can arise between ourselves and other humans. we never know when the bus is coming.